Black Heart Breaking, Broken Bonds

My 25 years,,,

Tue, 07 Jul 2009 02:46:37 GMT

Today I am offically in a quarter foot in the grave!I also started the X-ray part of my course. Every module I ended up with a 4.0 gpa but finished the Medical Assisting side with a 3.77 (B+) on the last one. I missed a test and the highest you can get is a 73% and I also failed one test with 54% the urinary system sucks by the way.Oh well this is still the best I've ever done in school period and this stuff isn't super easy!

Spence took me to dinner and at some point he's gonna go take me to see year one. THANKS KELL if you ever see this for the birthday wishes bright and early. She even beat Nicole to it. ;P
Well back to homework!!!!!

wooo being sick during the summer is the shit! nooooooooooooot!

My Finale!! :(

Thu, 07 May 2009 09:05:46 GMT

It's funny when a show can change your life and how you feel..call it lame...whatever. to each their own. I am not gonna lie but SCRUBS was a huge part of my life ! Tonight was it's final episode, and of course my eyes are bloodshot and filled with tears.ugh.

I refuse to watch the "spin off". back to my strawberry shortcake...
and just remember...

My 2 tests

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 15:35:08 GMT

Alrighty I know it's only been 3 weeks since I've been in school and so far test wise I think I'm doing pretty well an 84 my first test and 82 my second. W e just started injections. ugghhhhho. Of course I am bruised. The new one that we are practicing is the intramuscular.Not my favorite to get! My arm is still sore. I have so much homework to get down. 4 chapters and reading a small book on bloodborne precatuions.
Well nicole is making food so I best be goin. I need to get a new keyboard since mine wont work at all.

edit: THE ADICTS ARE PALYING TONIGHT AND IM GOIIIIIIIIIIIN!!!

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Sat, 28 Mar 2009 08:57:08 GMT

it's shitty you know when the people you love make you feel the worse...or is it worst.
sorry i can't be smart.

My Weekend.

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 05:42:20 GMT

This weekend was pretty awesome actually. Friday Mark Smith came back from New Orleans...so Nicole, Mark and I ended up going to "The Drifters" which was a dive bar called Club Teds.It was much cooler then, it had fun nick knacks and what not. So we had a few beers...and I finally got a free shot! haha The bartender was a girl and she gave everyone a free one. So we weren't special HAHA. After that we went back to his moms place..of course she was wasted...but it's always funny. We played pool, at some point I pinched Nicole...I feel, it was great just like old times.Hopefully he stays.

Saturday we made wraps which were tasty.Went to our High school to get certified for a cal-grant.That was pretty much it.Met up with Spencer, we had a few of his friends over.We tried to watch Amelie that didn't work out.

SUNDAY!!!! I went up to Kell's around 2ish we had a few drinks talked it up.Then we went to see RENT, which was friggin amazing! We indulged ourselves for 3 ours of just pure song. We balled our heads off. We got back pretty early. I saw Annie!!! It was awesome we blazed some bowls while Kell went to bed. All in all it was fabulous. However Kell woke up almost crippled.Her calves were killing her.But now that I think about it my thighs are killing me...and then it dawned on me, We ran back and forth up stairs to the bathroom at the Pantages.We sprinted to her car. HHAH whats up being outta shape. Tonight I made tacos for the baby and I. It was good. I missed him. Gay I know cause it was only one day, man i' m lame.

Tomorrow I'm getting an oil change!! I have to. I'm exhausted!

My Twilight.

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 04:04:43 GMT

So it happened...I feel victim to the series...I totally had no interest in t what so ever to be honest.Then some time last week I saw it for 8 bucks and why not.BIG MISTAKE, I couldn't put the book down...then the next one...same thing now i'm all done.I finished Breaking Dawn last night.Spencer said it was my drug for awhile and it was.I loved the books!I'll admit it. Now of course it usually ends up everyone wants to be a vampire or wants and Edward...I just want to be loved like that.Of course it doesn't help..im all emotional and my hormones are out of control at them moment.It made me realize I miss reading and now I have to find a new book to read.

kell sent me a text saying the tickets came !!!!
Today was eventful... went to enroll for school,it's official i'm a Kaplan student. Well I am on the waiting list for March but I think i'm not gonna get in that fast i start in july 6th. M-Th..10-3.
I have to go pick up spencer this was a pointless entry really..i didnt realize it was time.

and I leave you with this...cause this video is great...everybody i give you "the gooch" from scrubs

My First Step...

Tue, 03 Feb 2009 20:49:17 GMT

All I can say is ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Well thanks to Kell we are goin on a date to see RENT!Finally after 5ish years of loving it due to Kelly in the frst place.haha. Im sitll super excited.Infact I was so anxious to fall asleep..it also coulda been nerves due to the fact that I had to go to Kaplan.

So today I had an appointment with the admissions office. I was a wreck luckly Spencer was there for moral support.She asked a lttle about me and what program I wanted in . Then I got a to take some 50 question quiz n 12 minutes they knew we werent gonna finish...but I was to try anyways.So I got a 15, which is what was needed to qualify for the x-ray tech program.FUCK PROVERBS, DECIMALS AND WORD QUESTIONS IN MATHHHH!!!! It's a years course, 4months of internship, so I was all positve and then it got down to money...like always.

It's 19grand...but i could try and apply for financial aid to get grants...it's funny I never have money infact if im lucky I have about 100 bucks after all my bills are paid. So of course I made over the poverty amount to qualify...so I get to apply for loans i think about 7g's...yaaaaaaay. and Im pissed. so after all is said in done im feelin kinda down..ugh

My Wisdom...??

Fri, 23 Jan 2009 01:25:02 GMT

What a dayyyy! I go to the dentist just to go get a cavity filled, but they said "See you in 6 months" so I talked to the nurse about how my wisdom teeth have been bothering me...(truth is that shit shoulda been pulled when I was before I was 18.....but of course my bitch mother didn't want to pay for it....So I always put it off too) well finally I got HMO coverage and it's supposed to be 100% covered after copay.sorry im gonna vbe slightly scattered I have had no food today ugh. not like anyone is really gonna read this other than spencer anywho hahah.

So they give me an emergancy referal,and told me to go right over to the place....so right away I start to panic.Camled down called my boyfriend he was unable to pick me up due to work and since his work cut his hours.But I was brave!!!! My uncle actually picked me up.
I got 3 teeth extracted...and of course they made me purchase there pills because they aren't generic and wont have towait to fill them...
yeah I get home GENERIC.

My mouth is feels just peachhhhy and full of blood. Im starvinnnngggggggg.
Oh annnnd to top it off... it was 715.85 for the surgery....So when I feel better I will be comtacting aetna.

oooohhh and i have an oil leak !

My Freedom

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 21:31:00 GMT

So finally after six long years I can officially say
"FUCK YOU OFFICE DEPOT".
They shut the new store down..due to sales,shocker not so much. I'm just happy that my department was still in the green even when we closed that bitch down. Of course since I was a manager they were unable to place me...I'd have to take a huge pay cut and demotion, and still get stuck working with the asshole that made me wanna quit. anyways. So I took the severance package and got laid off. I loose my benefits but that's ok I never used them much anyways. Of course after the new year I had switched to the new health plan for dental and was gonna get my wisdom teeth pulled. I only get two months to try and get them done....chances are it wont happen.

Since I haven't been working I actually feel pretty much no stress anymore only the nervousness of how shit is gonna get paid, I'll get by though, my family is still crazy my lame ass uncle got fired so now he is home and loud as ever. The only positive thing that I have done so far is try and get information on the x-ray tech program...which reminds me the ass bags still haven't called me....so I'll have to do that today. I think that this whole situation is great....I mean I let that place hold me back....ok ok so I also didn't help the situation..I was scared. It's all I have known since I was 18...it put me into debt..but now I HAVE NO EXCUSES!!!

I am 24 now and I will admit I have done nothing to benefit myself or life...I mean I have an awesome boyfriend ~~that I know one day will marry...yeah for realssssss!~~ 2 and half years and I still get butterfies for the jerk! OH LOVE IS LAME BUT GREAT AT THE SAME TIME. My bestfriend is gonna be moving again to Denver.What's awesome is so Dustin, So they at least get to hangout....I can always go see them.
I have l~~earned~~ or shall I say known that friends seem to come and go...but yet I still keep in contact with what 2 people. oh well I'm lazy...and you know what they don't make the attempt either so whooooo cares no biggie. Life is short and I am just trying to take care of me..

Which reminds me I have to get an oil change...wooooo. Yeah I hate my car... oh and since when did livejournal get all easy to use .,...i forgot most of the codes for html...which is annoying damn technology is making everything easier for people which is nice but not...bLLLLAAAHHHH.

My Hopefully Future...

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 05:19:24 GMT

Things have been good but crazy 2006 is over and finally its a shitty year anyways, very uneventful.Minus the whole cal-arts,crazy westwood nights, falling in love with scrubs and getting a boyfriend who im gonna marry, true story. strange i know but im embracing it. Yeah other than that nothing so 2007 has to be better.Except for that this is the year my grandma will die of cancer (my mom's mom) i dont even want to think about it..she's already on hospice.For her sake I hope there is a god,cause she is cathloic and believes in that sortta thing...plus it'd be nice to know she'll be happy.

Wednesday is marking Spencers and I's 6 months...its crazy how fast time really does fly. We are going to ripleys believe it or not museum and we are getting wasted before hand!!

Well I had scare thinking Nicole was gonna die damn anitbitoics(sp?)meeeehhhh.

2007 also marked the year i quit pistola!! i mean its sad to say but shits dead and turned into this evil whore monster thing. ahha thats mean but i dont care. whatever the true girls who were my friends im gonna still be friends with.

im also hoping this is the year i go to school to start training for what i want to do with my life...and start yoga with cole slaw!!

ok so ive had 2 cups of coffee which means i must go..ahahah

goodday to you...goodday to you all

peace and love.

My Holiday

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 19:51:45 GMT

Well im ready to roll my car off a hill......another flat tire!

oooohhhh yeah baby.

good thing it happens around christmas. ssiiiiike.

Thursday was the first time i have ever spent without my family....but i did get to spend it with spencer's....intresting people jews can be..the family was all giving there thanks and his mom said "im thankful that stefanie's not pregnant" and my jaw dropped(luckily i was playing with a small poodle). ahhah it was funny, however really awkward. it's ok though we got to play house for 4 days and it was wonderful...even though i couldnt make it to westwood with cole slaw for friends thanksgiving..due to driving on a donout tire i cant spell it nor do i really care. but spending time with him has made all the badnesssss go away..im in love and couldn't be happier!!!

but if you know where i could get cheap tires but quality cause firestone sucks balllllss!

thankssssss

My Unlucky Money Situation

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 01:31:18 GMT

So I decided that I am soooo over money. Cause being in debt is a bitch.
My uncle Larry started kemo 2 days ago...he's already horribly sick.Cancer can suck a fat one man. My grandma Maggie isn't doing any better, I dont think she is gonna go through radation or kemo.

I hate my car 2 flat tires, one accident, and a blow out all in one year...im sooo not lucky with this game.I wanna roll it off the cliff. Im hopeing 2007 is gonna be a better year for everyone..but some how its hard to keep a positive out look on life..don't get me wrong im trying but sometimes it's just so hard...

My uncle Ron approached me about money...he wants to help me..he said im too young to go into debt..he's filling up my tank as we speak.Sometimes I really am lucky but at the same time I know Im going to have to pay him back with money I'll never have.jfdkojfkjdfkld

Life has been pretty uneventfull lately.routine routine. Well i take that back after 3 years of being single I finally have a boyfriend...haha who woulda thought,whatever im still gonna be a crazy cat lady.All i've been doing is just working spending almost every day with baby b and Spencer<3. I love those boys.Baby B is supposed to move to hawii next month..both Spencer and i dont want him to go.Brennan said that if I could find us an apartment that he would stay..well thats not gonna happen. Im broke...plus Aj and everyone is trying to convince me to move to Seattle.AAYYYYYYYEEE.I wouldn't even have money to do that.I hate money..

Oh yeah I saw Little Miss Sunshine and The Last Kiss both soooo good.Thank ya mr.smith ya rock my world!

Well enough complaining about nothing.I love you all.

.peace and love.

Thursdayss are back! amazing as always here is the result of 21111 and i still have paint stuck in my hair.
She is still my favorite pie to eat :

My...

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 03:43:17 GMT

You know how you one day wake up and think too yourself... what the hell am i doing?.
Today was that day for me...however it is gonna be hard for me, I know we will get through everything we are all dealing with. Our own demons so to speak. As of late I have felt really alone and out of place.Who doesn't??? dsdjsdjaskl

anyways..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLLLLIIIE!

My Pie has Returned

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 17:54:55 GMT

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OVERJOYMENT has been reached, she came home..but sadly enough she is leaving again.

So I will pretty much be MIA for the next week.

Sorry Oakland is kinda big deal. UUUUUGGGH

Kings corner is a great game.

Things with Spencer are goin good...thus far.

My Friends Prom

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 18:35:56 GMT

Some of the pictures from Miss Shanananans birthday!

I love my friends, so what If I look wasted and look sloopy I was and I still had fun!

More pictures but im too lazy i love my friends! That is all.

My Rosaderm cream came in the mail, Im pretty excited....Hopefully the redness will go away..I love Mychelle products I really do need to invest in them...cause I am starting to think that Dermalogica is to harsh for my skin and dries it out.

Im off at 9.

Last night I hung out with Brenann I haven't seen that kid in so long...and Im pretty sure I met my soulmate his name is Spencer. HAHHA he makes me laugh.

My Luck

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 03:39:21 GMT

Well I am actually happy I missed out on going to the lake. However next weekend I do have to go.

Friday night was spent at Marks. We picked up Dave from a false alarm being held up by a gun.
DON'T WORRY I GOT MASE
Played a friendly game of ping pong Dave and I so kicked those bitches ass'(Nicole and Mark)

Last night met up at Java and Jazz with Erik and everybody for watching The Marlboro Men play...of course it got shut down after and hour...the manager was such a jerk. Then we moved the party to Command Audio to watch Mokele Membe jam so goooood! Denny's sure does have some freaks that hang out till 3 in the morning there . Went back to Todd's house with Erik, Drew and Nik to have a sleep over.

Today was spent at the beach with some Sailor Jerry's and OG Kush. Even though Im not a fan of large bodies of water, today was enjoyable. Chilled on my towel with pounds of sun block...I gotta take baby steps so I don't get burned next sunday.I love Steve,Erik,and Shannon!

Hey at least I got exposure to the sun! right...

All I know is I love the good times that have been had lately...I say keep 'em comin. Just take the heat down a notch!

My Weekend

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 03:26:20 GMT

Dermatoligist don't know shit, I just wasted 50 bones on some guy trying to say that the redness is from drinking since I am 21, but I wanted to tell him that I've been drinking since 15 idiot....Not like that is a good thing but commmmmeee onnnn here.

Too much drinking but it's been so delightful...

I also have a new found love for Chik Patties.
Nicole met Ginger and of course she feel in love, we are gonna steal her from AJ.
Good times at Crystal Sounds ran into Omar...weird.

Opium Dreamsssssss
;)

Went to Marks saw some creepy movie, bbq!!!!! In a microwave..fake salami not so great!
Im sad we didn't get to play ping pong.

Went to Kell's (well Dan's)good people for sure, saw some loves of mine. 7 margaritas and smoked myself sleepy.Today is sunday and you can call us mellow yellow...

Lately life has been full of adventures wether they were good or bad...a lesson was learned. Spending time with people I love just makes the whole empty feeling vanish...but it's a feeling that I've had for three years. Granted Im not saying that I need people but to enjoy someones company isn't a bad thing...

However I am missing the feeling of being involved whateeeevs...im fine on my own too, I just want to cuddle...

.peace.

My Crap Day

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 06:47:57 GMT

you know what fuck this day actually...

first i get a flat tire and now NOW i rip my alkaline trio poster that i got from the show...

worse day ever

and im sick

get fucked. im pissed.

other than that the show was amazing!

why are we so chillllllll?

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 05:59:53 GMT

My Memorial Day Weekend:

Started off with a good time with my glorious friends!
The party was great Jessica made everyone banana pancakes, i do not enjoy bananas so I did not partake in that.Aj got way too drunk and sick he passed out by the toilet.
I decided to tell a boy in rollerblades that I hated him...and well yeah I still do with his stupid pony hair.

We went to Westwood for a bit drove back home and had the chillest jam session till 4 in the morning...
with songs such as : take off your shoes america and treasure hunt. hahah, it's great cause we totally did back up vocals you can't really hear us but you can hear our high pitched squeals and giggles.

BUDLIGHT the band fer sure owns!

Then on Monday we were supposed to go to a reggae festival at UCLA. That didn't work it was 15 to get in and we were all broke...so we found a river and chilled hard there for a bit! We went to Native Foods the best vegan food I have ever had.Cole SLAW loved it.
Nicole and I feel asleep at Eriks while everyone was at Megans.Erik stayed with us due to the fact he ate a brownie and it got him sick I guess edibles do that. Then Nicole and I went home and that was really it and today I worked and Iam so getting sick again ooooohh joy!

Oh and I have two dates to the hardcore prom

the beautiful kasey...and in the words of an old friend a real sweet dick. hahah im such an asshole.But Kaey and I are ditching him and just making him be our designated driver!
wooooo!Im pumped for xDEATHSTARx

Since it's summer and all I think I am going to challenge Nicole to a not shaving contest, we haven't had one of those in awhile.. ahahha

peace and love

weird

Tue, 09 May 2006 14:26:41 GMT

my baby brothers girlfriend is in labor...on my aunts birthday..

i was up till 4 puking

this shit is weird

good day

but scrubs is tonight and thats all that i care about

wooo season 3!

Sun, 07 May 2006 18:05:11 GMT

islands /why?

was seriously the best show i have been to in like well ever!
so much fun!!!

they wrapped a kid in toilet paper made him hit a cat pinata! they put the kid on the shoulders of the synth player he kept playing..

i love little asain men! ahha two of the members went eachothers shoulders(same guy that was playing the giant synth) while playing their violins. i have never seen such talented people.im still in wow.

so they played like 4 encores...they lighted fireworks in the el ray on the guitar so of course some dude put it out....and they said fuck this we are taking the party outside...so people just mobbed to the streets of los angeles and they gave out roman candles!
yeah so not legal here.fireworks everywhere! while they played accoustic !
shldjasldasj.

i love canada !
hahah

i still cant get over how amazing it was...i was with the best people:aj erik and megan only one part was missing...cole slllllaaww.

i urge you..if they come to your city please go. you wont regret it.thats if you enjoy music that makes you happy

heres to you mrs. robinson

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 20:10:33 GMT

oh my goodness i love the graduate i have never seen the whole movie through before, and i just did.
i love it i love it i love it.
!!!

also look out world for FUNKELTRON is coming to your town.

i just like the fact that they make me wiggle and dance. and feel amazing and in a good mood. i am such in a good mood. nicole and i are watching the simon and garfunkel dvd i baught for her birthday!we have been dancing all morning!

today is gonna be a good day.

we are gonna go for a stroll it is so beautiful...life can be so beautiful sometimes. :)

mhhhmm

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 20:26:46 GMT

I think the best way to lose something is to want it too much..

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 02:23:05 GMT

i hate being like this...

i really do but sometimes you just have to crawl up in a ball and sleep, ya know.

tonight im just feelin anti-social...sorry

Sat, 25 Feb 2006 07:21:44 GMT

gloves

Megan Is My Friend to the Max

dwarf invasion

...do the math turkeysss.....

with that said yeah i saw reggie and the full effect on wednesday. it was amazing.
i turned in my car to get fixed and now i have a rent a car.